last trimester

I've been out of the gates for awhile now
pushing towards something bigger than me
bigger than my dreams, bigger than this belly

waddling maybe

connecting my life to some new someones
plugging into this bigness is big business

whatever history I knew, I am changed
will be transformed

before: teacherfrienddaughterchildsinglewomanselfishtalker

after: childwifemotherloverlistenerclotheswashermenderbathroomcleanerdishwashercook

This is what I wanted.
Funny to say it. Even funnier to become it.